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[mtherfcknmonster]

[Weekends have been different since Kevin has been with Andrew and Neil and now that they're sharing the same bed, Andrew expects it to be even more different. Mainly, getting up has been harder, because Kevin never really wants to get his ass out of bed once he's in it, and this both amuses and frustrates Andrew- he's not entirely sure why. It's not like he cares if they make it to class or practice.

Andrew is always awake first, because he needs to be, but sometimes he thinks Neil wakes up before him and just waits for him to wake up before opening his eyes. It sounds like one of those stupid things Neil would do for him, to make him feel safer (and it works), but more often than not, Andrew is just too light of a sleeper to stay sleeping for too long.

This Saturday, he really is the first one awake, Neil sleeping next to him, curled into Kevin's side. Kevin is snoring softly (okay, maybe it's just heavy breathing but Andrew will swear on everything that it's snoring), his limbs sprawled out everywhere, one arm under Neil's neck, reaching out to almost touch Andrew's shoulder, the other above his head. One day, Kevin is going to end up on the floor, and Andrew won't feel bad about it. But today he seems firmly planted in bed and Andrew watches them sleep. He can do all the staring he wants and not get called out for it. It's images like these he wants to keep in his head so he has something to focus on when things get bad. He has something real to come back to, though he's not sure he deserves any of this at all.

It's when those thoughts start filtering in, that Neil stirs, turning from Kevin a bit and cracking his eyes open to look at Andrew. Neil gives him a small, sleepy smile when he sees that Andrew is awake, just like he always does and just like always, Andrew thinks it's horribly unfair and stupid that Neil could look this good as soon as he opens his eyes]

Morning.

[Neil says to him quietly after what what Andrew can tell is Neil quickly assessing to see if Andrew is in an okay place, if he had any nightmares or is unusually tense. Andrew doesn't return the greeting, but he reaches out and brushes his fingers through Neil's messy locks. Neil's smile grows wider and then he turns his head to look at Kevin again]

He snores.

[Andrew wants to make sure Neil knows that, and Neil laughs softly and shakes his head. ]

No he doesn't.

[Andrew lets out a soft huff, but tugs Neil forward and kisses him, because all these laughs and smiles so early in the morning, they're too good. Kevin's hand is between them, but Neil pulls it down a little so they can kiss easier, but he keeps his hand in Kevin's, curling his fingers around his]

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[mtherfcknmonster]

Yes.

[Just to get on his nerves about the clothes they are picking out!]

It could be, but it would be tighter on you.

[mtherfcknmonster]

Because they would not put a child in those kinds of things for a sports shoot.

[He quickly grabs another one, it has mesh]

Also this one.

[mtherfcknmonster]

Well then I would like to see these things because I never have. I am pretty sure I would have come across these photos when I looked through Neil's....

[He cuts himself off so abruptly that he feels like he might puke from the speed of it. And probably from the drinks in his stomach]

Do not talk to me. Do not ask me a single question. Just try those on. I will find pants.

[mtherfcknmonster]

[ Ia Kevin asks him, Andrew will stab him, he's pretty sure of it. And maybe himself, for being so foolish and letting his mouth run like that. He is always careful and deliberate with what he says and he doesn't like this slip up one bit. This is what happens when he drinks now, his tolerance so low, and the fact that he's growing so comfortable around these idiots.

He's angry.

These are not his secrets to tell.

He watches Kevin go off to the changing room and he knocks some shirts down off the rack that look horrible, then goes to find some pants. Skinny, tight ones. PVC for Kevin, because he's mad. ]

[1hundred]

[Neil has tried on both shirts and just like the first time, they feel too thin against his skin, as if everyone can see his scars through them. Andrew, once again, did pick out the right form though, where the scars don't actually show through.

But still.

He's really not sure, and trying on clothes is his least favorite thing, but he's doing it, checking himself out as much as he can without looking at his face. It's hard in these mirrors and he keeps catching glimpses of his blue eyes, then looking away. ]

Yeah, I'm here.

[Neil pokes his head out when he hears Kevin calling out to him]

[1hundred]

[Neil lets his gaze run down Kevin's body. That is some shirt Andrew picked out for him. He can see his pecs, his arms muscles, everything. It really does look painted on.

He almost forgets to speak. ]

Uh.... wow.

[1hundred]

[ Viewing pleasure is exactly what Neil gets. A year ago? This would have been nothing to him. He wouldn't have even glanced at some guy in a skin tight shirt, stretching and leaning, showing off an amazing body. H e couldn't afford to. But now?

Now, Kevin and ANdrew have awakened a lot of things inside of him and damn, this is a good view. ]

Yeah, definitely get that shirt. It looks amazing on you.

[Then he pauses, letting out a soft sigh before he opens the door wider. He tugs on the hem of the shirt and crosses his arms as he steps out]

[1hundred]

[No, he wouldn't have cared, even if it was Kevin parading around naked.

Kevin as a person he knew he had to keep track of and stay away from, sure. But that's not what any of this is about right now. What he means is, attraction-wise. Checking someone out. Having the luxury of being able to feel turned on, seeing Kevin dressed the way he is. ]

Yeah, I know what you mean. But I don't think these are meant for comfort.

[He eyes Kevin again. Helping him out of it when they get back might not be a problem. Hell, even now if he needs help getting it off, Neil probably would.

It's....

[He looks down at himself, uncrossing his arms and letting them hang at his sides]

You don't think it's too tight? Can you see anything?

[1hundred]

[Of course they are important in Neil's life because of more reason than the fact they are good to look at. That's a complete given. But still not the point here, where he is allowed to check them out and be okay with it. He doesn't look at anyone else, but he gets to look at them.

They're definitely special for more reasons than just that one. ]

Andrew manages to pull it off.

[Neil doesn't even think about what it might turn into.... okay, he is a little bit, but mostly he's just thinking, they're going to have to get out of these clothes and go about the rest of their day.

He looks at Kevin when Kevin tilts his head up and he gives him a small smile]

Guess that's what we're going for, then. Right?

[1hundred]

He's cool with me picking something out?

[Neil isn't sure where to begin, but he wants to do Andrew proud]

I tried both on already. They both pretty much fit the same.

[Neil lets out a soft sigh when Kevin's finger moves across his lips. He supposes Andrew does have the right idea about these clothes, but they'd feel this way about each other with or without them: wanting to touch]

Is he still out there looking for clothes? I bet he has a stack by now.

[1hundred]

Yeah, probably should.

[But Andrew would probably think it would be cool if Neil picked something out for him, as long as it wasn't Neil's usual- which tthey probably wouldn't find in this store anyway]

That's... good, right? I mean, for you and Andrew, at least.

[He gives a small smirk, but he can tell something is suddenly on Kevin's mind. Should he ask? He's not sure.]

Alright, I'll try and get myself out of this one and go find him. Unless you want me to wait and see the other one too.

...PVC pants?

[1hundred]

Whatever the values of good are that work for you, I'm into. And if it works out for me, all the better.

[And maybe it will give him more confidence, too]

Okay, I'll come back with him. I'm sure he'd like to see you in that too.

[Neil tries to think of all the shoots he's seen Kevin in and then he tries not to think about them, because he feels guilty about never telling Kevin about the binder]

Guess we'll have to see which way he goes on this. I mean.... I'm sure they looked really good anyway.